i'm just being honest

aside from waking up at almost 4 in the morning with thoughts that my girlfriend cheated on me coinciding with my dog throwing up, i wouldn't say i am having a "bad" day.

what ever happened to fair and balanced?

in a world where everyone likes to point out the faults of others while wallowing in some self-fabricated sense of "i can do no wrong" i would really like to know where people get off believing the lies they tell themselves. i mean, terms like "what's good for the goose is good for the gander" and "the pot calling the kettle black" used to mean things to people. sure they may just be silly sayings, but to some, to those of us who desired to become more efficient human beings, we took the terms and applied them to our lives. we realized that if we held ourselves to be no better or worse than anyone else, then we couldn't excuse ourselves from bearing the brunt of our unhealthy actions. in other words, if we are all truly equal why are rigged sets of rules and standards applied to one group over the other?
we really should not be so quick to point fingers or judge others when their actions don't fit into our ideas of what should be right or wrong. we need to realize that every person is fallible in almost every circumstance. we constantly fuck up. it is our nature. the only thing we can do about it is accept our faulty actions and try to rise above it all. try to be understanding that in our actions, we hurt others and at least try to make ammends. not out of feeling regretful of our actions, but because other people deserve our apologies. and our most sincere at that. often the ways we react toward others is a byproduct of other people's actions effecting us, and others effecting them, and so on & so forth. therefore, none of us are truly responsible for our actions. the only responsibility lies in forgiving and making sure that devastating line of tearing down and belittling stops with us. knowing that no matter what kind of shit is thrown our way, we can at least humbly offer our attempt at behaving kindly in order to procure more kindness and understanding toward our fellow man.
we need a little understanding in our lives. if we ever want to get along, it is going to take both sides TRYING. just fucking trying. damn it. the theory doesn't seems very difficult to me, but for some reason, it is.
hopefully the ability is within us. for the sake of humanity we need to find it.

no matter how much i want to write in this thing, it is in credibly tedious and typically i get bored with posting before i even make a complete coherent thought.
there are tons of things in my life that happen on a daily basis worthy of blogging about. stupid shit i hear, funny shit i hear, things that piss me off, things that inspire me, fleeting thoughts i have which really should be documented, and dreams so strange and bizarre enough to make Lovecraft get goosebumps. thing is, i find it boring.

i should really work on that, as it would perhaps benefit me to make note of these instances. i mean, it wouldn't be to get attention from others, as i am sure noone ever reads this. but that would probably be a good thing. air it all out and save my thoughts on some server, god knows where, instead of trying to remember this crazy shit day to day.

guess i will work on it.
some other time.